i could not figure out what I wanted my intro to be.. so (insert clever caption/ quote/ hook here) I want to apologize to all my English teachers in the past for not supplying a captivating hook to draw you in. this post is about life, love, happiness, heart break, and even an idea for a self help book. All the good things.
it’s been a little over a month since i have been at school. So far it has actually been the best quarter for me yet. I love my classes, have been intentional with spending time with friends, plus met new people, enjoy my job, and have taken time for myself.I can say I am the happiest I’ve been in a long time.
however. The only thing that I know is holding me back is the fact that i miss my ex. Since I have been at school, we have cut off all communication. I thought that was what I wanted. Don’t get me wrong, I know that was the step we needed to take. But I miss my best friend. This is the longest we have been without talking. He and I became best friends my sophomore year in high school. If the math is done right, that is about a 5 yea friendship.oh the nostalgia.
i really do miss him– yes this year has been a whirlwind of emotions involving that boy (mostly on the negative side of the spectrum) But my question is how do I just get over all these feelings? This is where a self help book– how to not miss your ex, even though time away is much needed and will provide healing. Yes it will take time, but here are some tips-– would come in handy. Like 100% realize we do not belong together. So it is not I am pining over him, but simply just miss him. So many times, I have caught myself wanting to send a funny picture, quote, or story that just reminded me of him. But have to stop myself.. I am not sure what exactly to do. My friends are trying to give advice, but they don’t really understand. yes– it takes time.
it feels like apart of my heart is missing because he is not in my life. How does that gap get filled? I want to move on. But before I am able to even think about that– I need to know I am over this.Do we ever truly move on from past loves? or do we just leave a part of our heart with each one, as sad at that sounds.
as I said earlier though– i have been in a much happier state of mind since I have been back here. Loving myself is a lot to do with that. It’s taken a while to get to this place, but I love it. There is so much good happening.
moral of the story– it takes time. I know, I know. But I would rather just have 10 steps on how to not miss an ex or a self help book focused on this specific subject.
beauty in the everyday 